Watching Youngest Son watch the football the other night, made me realise two things; firstly how much has changed, secondly how little has changed, since E left us. Whilst the kids and I have experienced a seismic shift emotionally, and in terms of our family dynamic, the fact is that in terms of our environment […]
Tag: relationships
The Beautiful Game
Another word cup season has rolled around and with it has come a host of memories. As well as the fact that England will probably go out on penalties, there is an additional sadness for me this time. Whilst I’m largely grateful for the fact that I’m barely registering the football this year, it’s not […]
Fathers’ Day
It was Fathers’ Day on Sunday, and whilst the kids didn’t particularly lament the lack of their Dad (in fact none of them noticed – Youngest Son only remembered because I asked him if he’d wished his Dad a Happy Father’s Day), it did make me reflect upon E’s role as a ‘father figure’. In […]
Shaman
Yesterday evening I was lucky enough to interview a Shaman for the magazine that I work for. It was one of the most extraordinary experiences I’ve ever had. I won’t go into detail here (I’ll save those for the article I’m writing), but one of the things that stood out about our conversation was his […]
Fair
A couple of days ago, a friend at work asked me if I was writing this blog for E to read. My answer was a rather surprised ‘no’. There were a few reasons I started writing this blog. The first was to explore what had happened to me, to pull at strands of the tangled […]
The Secret Diary of E, aged 37 3/4* *(according to J). The Early Years: Part One
Over the last year or so loads of people have asked me what on earth was going on in E’s head. I usually shrug, shake my head and say something along the lines of ‘unfathomable’. But maybe, just maybe, I can guess. Below is the first in a series of light-hearted attempts to look at […]
Peace
I noticed today that I started this blog on 19th February 2018. By sheer coincidence this was the 10th anniversary of the day that I found out about E’s first affair. I didn’t deliberately choose the date, but it now seems strangely serendipitous that the date that everything started to fall apart ten years ago, […]
In his words
Today, I’m doing something I didn’t think I would ever do. I’m handing today’s blog over to E. I thought long and hard before doing this. After all, this blog is all about me finding MY voice and trying to give a voice to other people who have had their lives blighted by infidelity. The […]
Soft Focus
The picture Youngest Son had found was E’s updated WhatsApp profile picture. It was a wedding photograph. It’s a sideways on shot of P (in one of her two wedding dresses), puckering up to E in some sort of tropical cabana. You can’t really see their faces, it’s all soft focus and gentle waves and […]
Bar
Today I’m handing part of the blog over to one of Oldest Daughter’s best friends – C. They have been friends for most of their lives and C is one of the friends that has been by Oldest Daughter’s side throughout everything she’s been though as a result of E’s leaving. C, along with a […]
He-total: Life without Ex 