Weasel

When asked to describe what his plays were about, Harold Pinter famously replied: ‘the weasel under the cocktail cabinet’.  This perfectly describes the sense of unease, even dread, that pervades the seemingly ‘normal’ world of his plays. Like a Pinter play, without the long pauses, on the surface everything in my world is perfectly normal […]

Nero

Like most children, when I was little I was irrationally scared of ‘monsters’. My personal demons were the monster under the bed, the Cybermen, the Sandman (horrific concept), and (bizarre, I know) the Roman Emperor Nero I can’t remember how I learned about Nero – it may well have been because I was aware of […]

Dishes

All of a sudden, in the weeks running up to Christmas, Oldest Son seemed to reach Peak Teen. My mild mannered, quietly sardonic son became slightly moody, his amusingly sarcastic comments became increasingly biting and his usual amused patience with me and his siblings was replaced with an increasingly bemused irritation. It was bound to […]

Food

When Oldest Daughter was 18 months old, she came down with a nasty bout of gastro-enteritis.  Literally everything she ate went straight through her, causing her huge distress (and causing me a huge amount of washing and carpet cleaning).  The best treatment for this was just to give her minimal, very plain, food and lots […]

Work

Working full time, after 18 years out of the workplace, has been a brilliant but, at times, slightly strange experience. I know lots of women can find being at home with their children very stressful, whilst others can find it very boring and not challenging enough – but I absolutely loved it. I loved being […]

Body

One of the first things I did when I found out about E’s affairs was look at photographs of the woman he had been involved with and compare myself to them.  I didn’t even question why I did it, it was just instinct – if I wasn’t good enough what did they have that made […]