Dear E I’m not sure why I’m writing this. I don’t think it will achieve anything. In fact, if anything, it will feed into whatever narrative you’ve created to justify your behaviour and make you the hero of your story (or the victim of mine). I spent 25 years listening to you describe the people […]
Category: depression
Leaving
Pretty much from the moment Youngest Daughter found out she was expecting a baby, she began thinking about creating a home for her, her baby and her partner. Obviously, as they are so young, we knew this would be difficult, and I offered them my home for as long as they needed it. This all […]
Brain
Sometimes, being the Human Passenger piloted by my brain can be an exhausting experience. It’s a bit like being ruled by a hyperactive toddler who’s been fed sugar, caffeine and been given a kitten. When I was visiting Oldest Daughter in Durham, my train journey, that I’d hoped would be a quiet, peaceful few hours, was […]
Court
28th October 2019. My 50th birthday. I like birthdays. Especially mine. No matter how old I get, I always get that happy feeling on the morning of my birthday – a feeling that nice things will happen, there will be cake, and friends and good stuff. As a result, I’ve had some memorable birthdays. When […]
Baby
I’m sorry for the lack of blog over the last few months. As I’ve mentioned on the Facebook page, events have rather overwhelmed me in the last few months. The court case has happened, and looks likely to happen again (more in another post), but the most important thing that’s happened, and something I couldn’t […]
Tired
Apologies, in advance, for this post. I usually try to keep my posts upbeat, but I must admit I have been struggling recently. Most days I can pick myself up and get on with things (my daily mantra is ‘just keep going’), but recently there have been more and more days when I just want […]
Plate
It’s funny how metaphorical cups overflowing are seen as good, yet metaphorical plates being overloaded are undoubtedly bad. Until recently, perhaps thinking more in terms of barbecues than metaphors, I’d rather have risked trying to balance an overloaded plate (potential to make it to my destination without dropping anything and then lots of nice stuff […]
Reggie
I’ve never really been a dog person, I don’t mind them (although I do find dogs that jump up a bit overwhelming), and, unlike cats, who pretty much just need feeding and somewhere to sleep, they need so much personal care – they need training to behave well, daily or twice daily walking, grooming and […]
Groundhog Day
I now have a court date – in either a beautiful stroke of irony, or a perfect example of sod’s law, it’s been fixed for my 50th birthday. I guess, it will mark a new beginning, and a new freedom from E, whatever the court decides to do. However, my birthday is at the […]
Second Wave
I’ve talked a lot on this blog about how I’ve moved on from E and how happy I am that he’s no longer a part of my personal life. Every day gets better and every day I’m happier. However, hand in hand with this, or a side effect of getting emotionally so much better, is […]
He-total: Life without Ex 