In what would be a year of Firsts after E left, I think my first day at work in 19 years was one of the most daunting. I had literally been at home since September 1998. I was used to my own company, my own rules. I was used to silence and my own space. […]
Tag: infidelity
Dark Hours Symphony
It’s a very long time since I did O’ Level music (the fact that it was an O’ Level, not a GCSE, is indicative of exactly how long), but it occurred to me the other night (when I was wide awake, obvs) that my Dark Hours Anxiety has a particular pattern and follows an almost […]
Things I miss
I was just thinking that this blog has been a tad a bit Anti-E so far. Whilst I’m sure most of you (especially my Mum) are now saying ‘Well….Duh!”, I did think it was slightly unfair to be totally negative about him and thought that maybe I should redress the balance? There were *some* good […]
Him
I’ve written about P here, but, really, she’s sort of irrelevant. E would have done what he did with another student if she hadn’t been there. But what about E? What do I think about E? The answer might seem obvious and rather sweary, but actually, it’s a tricky one. I visited a solicitor not […]
Success
In lots of ways Sober March was going quite well. I was walking 3-4 kilometers a day, I was making sure I ate loads of fruit and vegetables (ever one for a challenge, I’d set myself a target of 10 portions a day, just to see if it was possible) and, whilst I was still […]
Family Ties
One of the things I was really worried about when E left was what would happen to my relationship with his family. They had been a big part of my life, for over half of my life, and they were very much a part of my kids’ lives. To be honest, E had always been […]
Her
So far I’ve only talked about P in passing, along with O, K and Forum Post Woman, as ‘the other women’. I haven’t allocated any real importance to her or any emotion towards her, and that’s because, I genuinely don’t really feel very much about her. I know some women would, quite understandably, feel anger, […]
Speechless
In the meantime, whilst I job hunted (no more science jobs for me), perfected my drunk shopping techniques, and tried to make everything ok for the kids, things with E were, well, totally silent. I don’t know what I expected, but I had just assumed that at some point he’d talk to me about what […]
Slippers and rats
If looking for a job was daunting, attending interviews was utterly terrifying. Once I’d stopped shaking, my first interview in 20 years was actually ok. The two woman who interviewed me were lovely and all in all I was glad to get it under my belt. I didn’t get the job, but they did send […]
Happy Hunting
I needed a job. This was probably one of the most absolutely daunting things I had to face in the aftermath of E leaving. It also stung a bit because, from her LinkedIn profile (the kids were regular stalkers), it looked like P had just found a brand new job of her own – in […]
He-total: Life without Ex 