Tag: middleage

I know this might sound odd, but one thing that I have realised because of everything that has happened with E, is how incredibly lucky I am.  The things that have kept me going throughout all of this have been my amazing friends and my incredible family.  They have provided unstinting support and love for […]

According to the myth, the thing trapped in Pandora’s box when she slammed the lid shut was hope. The morning after I’d looked at E’s laptop, I couldn’t see any hope at all. I was on autopilot.  I woke the kids up as usual.  I sorted their breakfasts as usual.  I packed their lunches and checked […]

There was another Other Woman?  I’d dreaded finding one, but never in my wildest nightmares had I expected to find two. The affair with had O started whilst he was living in Singapore.  I’m not sure if it coincided with when we lived there as a family (between 2010 and 2012), but it was certainly […]

I stared hopelessly at the screen. I was acutely aware of the kids upstairs and how odd it would look if they saw me, sitting in the dark, using their dad’s laptop, I was also unsure of exactly where to look/what to look for. Back in 2008, I’d found out about affair number one when I […]

In the dark of the dining room, the laptop screen was the only light. I went to turn it off but, glancing at the screen, I realised, that for the first time in  four years, it had been left open, unlocked, I could access all the files… The cursor was blinking slowly. Did I want […]

If someone had told Past Me that one day I’d end up as someone whose partner had cheated on them multiple times, and that – in my late 40s and with four kids – I’d end up having to start my life all over again, I’d have laughed at them. But here we are.  And […]